Every
night when everyone’s asleep, I grab my phone and read all our old messages and
conversations...I feel the tears slowly rolling down my eyes and suddenly the
tears won’t stop...I start remembering all the times you told me YOU love me
and all the moments you took my breath
away.. Some day you make me think we can still be….. Other days I am so
hopeless thinking I should just give up… Yes I can’t force you to love me but I
can’t force myself to stop loving you...It’s hard for me to pretend that I don’t
love you anymore or I don’t care for you..It’s true that I hate to see you
happy with somebody else but I’ll surely hate myself more to see you unhappy
with me…
I still don’t wish to walk away and forget about what we had.Whenever
I see a flashback of our relationship in front of me… we
loved to be together, when we used to be together we did things that we love…
every time you were near me I felt I was in heaven…I felt high ever time you
touched me…I didn't wanted to let you go, I wished I could have loved you more,
I wish I could have hold you tight forever, I still wish to die in your arms…
.
Your love, your touch is just with me and it will
be forever…I have no importance in your life but you still owe a very precious
place in my life... you were the best that has happened in my life...and I
thank god for the best gift which I received after my family…but I guess the
prayers which I sent for you has taken a turn and has come back forever…you and
me are no more together but the fragrance of our love will always be there with
me…
You are
not there with me anymore and this is the most painful thing for me…I still
love with the broken pieces of my heart…I always thanked god for the things you
did for me…the time you spent listening to my problems and the warm embraces
that showed you care for me was the most best feeling for me… the gentle kisses
that said “I LOVE YOU” the gestures that said I am a special person in your
life…I poured out my love for you…every thought of yours with every single
breath I take a voice within me says I need you…
I am not
a perfect person, I am sorry that I hurt you; I never meant to do those things
to you… you find reason to love me but I loved you, I love you without any
reason…but now I am going to smile and make you think I am happy, I am going to
laugh so that you don’t make out I cried for you, even if this feeling kill me
I am going to smile. I said I love and these three words had life in them and
it still has for me! My smile and my laugh hide more pain than you can imagine…
It wasn't a long time that I met you but in that short time you managed to change my life
completely. I gave you the best position in my heart I wished to have a loving
and a long journey with you because I adored you…I am breaking from inside day
by day, I don’t want to fall and say I lost it all because there’s a part of me
to hit the wall leaving pieces of me behind and no one knows the pain I feel
every time I see you…feeling of love is the most beautiful feeling that can
ever happen…there’s no reason why I love and that’s why there will be no reason
for me to hate you…explaining why I love is impossible I don’t even know why
and to be honest, I really don’t want to…you are not with me but everyday I
think of you, everyday remind of what we had and I am afraid nothing could ever
stop this feeling. I like to pretend that everything is alright because when
everybody else think you are fine, sometimes you forget for a while that you
are not…
I am
sorry for being the biggest mistake of your life while you were the best thing
to ever happen to me. I don’t know why I keep that hope still inside me…this feeling is weird and i really want to get over this!
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